November 25th, 2009
Current Mood:  infuriated
Never will I hit my child. NEVER! Not even with a wooden spoon. EVER! You understand me. NEVER! You think it's right, well guess what. It's not. Your child will hate you forever. You will lose something in them that you will never get back. You run away like you are scared, or afraid to confront the problem. You say, "wait til you have kids!!??!" Well guess what, even when I have kids I will never hit them. It's WRONG! On every level. You piss me off to no end. I lose respect for you everytime I hear about it. You are a horrible parent. Your child will never look up to you again. When they think back to everything from their childhood they will remember the horrible, painful way you handled every situation. You treat him like he is an adult, a grown up,"a big person", but guess what he's only going to be 5 years old. God, you make me sick to my stomach. DON'T EVER TELL ME WAIT TIL I HAVE MY OWN KIDS! Because I know for a fact, I will never treat them the way you do. In fact I will be an even better parent then you.
June 4th, 2009
Current Mood:  nauseated
so. it was just a shit of a day. i got wicked sick at work this morning came home and slept all day. then around 11pm chris wanted to make some popcorn, but because of the meds i am on i can't eat for an hour after i take it, anywho i am still feeling kind of sick.
more to the point,
so i am sitting in bed reading and chris is on the computer and i start to smell something HORRIBLE! i go out in the kitchen and the microwave is SMOKING!!! Chris put the bag of popcorn in for 15 MINUTES!!!?!?!??! Instead of 1 minute and 50 seconds!!!! IT HAD BEEN IN THE MICROWAVE FOR 5 MINUTES ALREADY!!!! OUR WHOLE APARTMENT SMELLS TO HIGH HEAVEN!!!!! NO LIE!!!!! so now i feel even worse. I feel bad for him as well. I know he didnt mean to do it. but ohhhh gosh it smmmmeeeellllllssss so bad! we have fans in every window blowing the smell out. i hope it goes away soon.
oh, our microwave is fine.
April 10th, 2009
Current Mood:  peaceful
Current Music: Regina Spektor
Come in, come in
Come into my world I've got to show
Show show you
Come into my bed
I've got to know
Know know you
I have dreams of orca whales and owls
But I wake up in fear
You will never be my
You will never be my fool
Will never be my fool
Floaters in my eyes
Wake up in an hotel room
Cigarettes and lies
I am a child, it's too soon
I have dreams of orca whales and owls
But I wake up in fear
You will never be my
You will never be my fool
Will never be my fool
A little bag of cocaine
A little bag of cocaine
So who's the girl wearing my dress
I figured out her number
Inside a paper napkin
But I don't know her address I wade downstairs
The porter smiles to me a smile
I've bought
With a couple of gold coins
A sign that I've been caught
I have dreams of orca whales and owls
But I wake up in fear
You will never be my
You will never be my dear
Will never be my dear, dear friend
Dear dear friend, dear dear friend...
A little bag of cocaine
A little bag of cocaine
So who's the girl wearing my dress
I figured out her number
Inside a paper napkin
But I don't know her address
Come in, come in
Come into my world I've got to show
Show show you
Come into my bed
I've got to know
Know know you
I have dreams of orca whales and owls
But I wake up in fear
You will never be my
You will never be my dear
Will never be my dear, dear friend
Dear dear friend, dear dear friend...
I love regina spektor. .
April 1st, 2009
Current Mood:  excited
IT'S MY 22ND BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!
Oh, April 1st, 1987, I was born!!
March 25th, 2009
Current Mood:  ecstatic
Meet Elliott Joyce Alana
She is the newest member to my family!
Her birthday is 5/23/2008
She was born at 10:55am and weighted 8lbs. 6oz!!!
March 18th, 2009
Current Mood:  crappy
i feel icky.
enough said.
February 26th, 2009
A
- Available: Not since 10/24/2005
- Age: 21
- Animals: Cats
B
- Beer: I don't drink
- Birthday: April 1st
- Body Part on opposite sex: jawline
- Blind or Deaf: Neither, I guess
- Best weather: 75 sunny, slight breeze
- Been in Love: Yes
- Been on stage?: A lot
- Believe in Magic: Yes
- Believe in Santa: Of course
C
- Candy:Swedish Fish
- Color: Red
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Vanilla, i cant have chocolate
- Chinese/Mexican Food: Chinese
- Cake or pie: Cake
- Cheese: Blue Cheese
D
- Day or Night: Night
- Dancing in the rain: Depends
E
- Eyes: Green
- Everyone's got: Lips
- Ever failed a class? yep
F
- First thoughts waking up: Holy crap it's 11am
G
- Greatest Fear: Don't laugh, but dying on the toilet. told you not to laugh
- Goals: Find a job
- Get along with your parents?: Yes
H
- Hair Color: Dark, dark brown with red
- Height: 5'6
- Happy: very
- Holiday: thanksgiving
- How do you want to die: knowing I did everything I wanted to do
I
- Ice Cream: Peppermint
- Instrument: piano
J
- Jewelry: necklace and engagement ring from Chris, a ring from my Nana, and earrings from my parents
- Job: Hopefully working with children
K
- Kids:yes!
- Kickboxing or karate: kickboxing
- Keep a journal?: 2 or 3 of them
L
- Love: My 2 cats, chris, my family and friends
- Letter: Q
M
- Milk flavor: Strawberry
- Movies: A LOT
- Motion sickness?: Only all the time
- McD’s or BK: it depends
N
- Number: 24
O
- One wish: That all the plans for the wedding work out
P
- Pepsi/Coke: coke
- Perfect Pizza:homemade!
- Piercings: ears
Q
- Quail: man, Oh, Doug Funny
R
- Reason to cry: emotions
- Reality T.V.: ANTM
- Radio Station: None.
- Roll your tongue in a circle: yes
- Ring size: 7
S
- Song: dont know
- Shoe size: 9
- Salad Dressing: thousand island
- Sushi: MY FAV
- Skinny dipped?: no
- shower?: All the time
- Strawberries or Blueberries:both
- Sport: Hockey, baseball
T
- Tattoos?: nope
- Time for bed:later
- Thunderstorms: hate them
U
- Unpredictable:today
V
- Vacation spot(s): everywhere
W
- Weakness: a big comfy bed
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: no idea
- Worst feeling: failing
- Wanted to be a model: nah
X
- X-Rays: to many to count
Y
-Year it is now: 2009
-Yellow: mellow
Z
- Zoo animal: penguins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
December 28th, 2008
Current Mood: depressed
I don't like to talk about depressing things here. But I have to vent. Chris and I lost our jobs today. I was at work and I got a phone call from Jennifer, my divisional director. She was calling to tell me that tomorrow (12/28/2008)she is coming to close my cart. I guess we weren't making enough for the company standard. She called at 8pm tonight (12/27/2008). That wasn't even a full day. Which I think is BULLSHIT. She's known for 2 days. She wants Chris and I to help close the cart. I really think that is a slap in the face. Really. I want to tell her to fuck off and do the damn thing herself. I mean for fuck sake! I have no idea what I feel or how I feel, besides really pissed. I want to destroy the cart and scream and punch the shit out of the president of the company. I am the only cart in the new district to be closing. AGAIN, BULLSHIT. I don't understand it. I needed this job. I needed the money to survive. I need the job to help pay my bills. I need the job. I HAVE TO HAVE A JOB. Especially with how our economy is. You can't live without having any money. I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. If anyone has something positive to say, something inspirational that would be wonderful, because right now I need something and so does Chris. aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to cry, again. I want to fight this. I want to wake up from this dream. I want to scream, this can't be true. I really want to say, FUCK YOU. FUCK, FUCK, FUCK. I am trying so hard to think positively, but it just isn't happening. Please help me with positive thoughts.
December 23rd, 2008December 6th, 2008
Current Mood:  energetic
wedding check list, well so far.
1. we picked our colors, it's kind of this color, but a little bit darker.
2. we picked part of our centerpieces
3. we talked about/ started working on who to invite (part of guest list)
4. we found someone to make our invitations and table place cards! (Tina Sweep you are amazing!!) www.tinasweep.com
5. we kind of picked a venue
6. we picked our cake, kind of.
oh,
7. this should have been first, we picked a date. . .
10/ 7/2011
We mainly wanted to wait til after Chris gets done with Binghamton U. (or as I call it Bing U.) We seem to be doing alright with it. it's awhile away yet, but we are taking it kind of slow.
Also, I have a good friend, named Megan, who is going to play dress up with me at a Bridal shop!! And she is helping me pick out the venue, we kind of picked one, but Chris and I aren't sure about it yet.
I AM SOOOOO EXCITED!!!!
November 2nd, 2008
NEWS! @ 11:15 pm
Current Mood: ecstatic
CHRISTOPHER AND I ARE OFFICALLY ENGAGED! IT HAPPENED YESTERDAY, NOVEMBER 1ST, 2008!!!!!! I just couldn't keep it to myself. but yay!
September 6th, 2008
Current Mood: ecstatic
News:
1. My sister and brother-in-law are having another baby!!! That will be 2 for them!! YAYAYAYAY! Not sure if it a boy or a girl. To early to tell. But still another nephew or a neice! I can't wait just to hold that baby!
2. Chris and I got a new kitty today! Her name is Bromley. She is 6 months old. She is very tiny. Black and white and very friendly. I love her soooo much. Pizza will love her too. We brought home a blanket with her scent and he took a nap on Bromley's blanket. It was soooooo cute! We sadly couldn't bring her home today because our vet's office was closed. So, we need Pizza's paperwork stating that his shot's are up to date. BUT YAY US!
July 8th, 2008
my birthmark is on the inside of my left ankle. I think it looks like Africa. Most people agree.
June 12th, 2008
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: none.
okay, i am sick of people not talking to me.
i am not invisible!
some friends.
i have had enough.
thank god i have chris, otherwise I think I would be completely alone.
FUCK THIS!!!?!?!?!?!??!?!
don't comment back. it isn't worth it.
AGAIN, FUCK THIS!!!!!!!!!!!
April 22nd, 2008
Current Mood:  creative
Current Music: Drake and Josh, heheh.
Look I have a tree!!!!
I made my earth day effort and now chevy is going to plant a tree in my name! Isn't that awesome!
April 16th, 2008
Current Mood:  anxious
Current Music: goodness, I dont know
Summer can't seem to come fast enough! I want summer to be here, and I really want a better paying job! I am sick of waiting to find out if I am going to be working. It drives me nuts! I just want something that will pay better, and fixed hours. Again, I am so sick of not knowing til that week. I want a set schedule. Is that a problem? Yup, I don't know. But yea. I just, that, I don't know. I am ready to go, I am ready to move, and start more of my life with Christopher. I just, I don't know. Sorry for rambling, it's just been one of those days I guess. But I really do want summer to be here. That and I want a new job. My job is just boring now and I do the same thing all the time, which I guess is something I am going to be doing with another job, but if I work with kids they will be growing and changing, so hopefully that will be something fun, or different. But I am going to eat lunch and hanging around and work on more homework. But yea. Again sorry for rambling.
April 9th, 2008
my friend's. The Crew.
April 1st, 2008
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: something on tv
Today is my birthday!
So,
Happy Birthday 21st to me!!
March 17th, 2008
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: mmmhhh, nothing really
Next Thursday Chris and I are going to a Pittsburgh Penguins game and I can't wait!!! It is going to be so much fun, we are traveling to Pittsburgh! I can't wait! And then on May 20th I am moving to Binghamton for the summer! We were going to work at camp hollis, but he needs to have 2 calc classes. So, we decided for the best that we move into the apartment together, even if it is only for 2 1/2 months. I can't wait! Again, this is going to be different. Something the two of us have talked a lot about. Now it's our chance to give it a try and see how it works. I am nervous and excited and anxious. Oh man, I am a bundle of emotions. I feel that this is going to be a chance towards my actual independence. But I AM MOVING TO BINGHAMTON! WOOOO. Even if it is only for a short time. I hope that it work outs and that we really get closer. Well I guess that's all.
February 11th, 2008
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: something on tv
SNOW DAY
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